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SO I reached my goal two days ago when my OTHER uncle/aunt contributed a large sum of money as well! I never intended to ask my family (outside of my mom) for help on this and they somehow found this journal (thanks mom LOL) and decided to help me out! I'm so grateful to have such a loving family and I couldn't have reached this goal at all without you guys! I was able to raise about $500 from donations ALONE and that is a huge amount and it just shows how amazing the DA community can be. I love you all so much more than words can say and I hope to be back to drawing soon once my tablet comes in! ;3;

I've decided to go with the MobileStudio Pro 13 256g seen here us-store.wacom.com/product/wac…
and I'll be posting a picture of it once its in my hands! After I'm able to get through the commissions I already owe I'll definitely be drawing gifts for a lot of people that donated inbetween trying to make money to catch up on bills and such! If anyone is in the process of making adopts for this feel free to please keep all of the proceeds you make as I have reached my goal! I appreciate each and every single dollar I've received and I'll never be able to express in words how grateful I am to everyone. ;_; *BIG GIGANTIC E-SMOOCHES*



EDIT #3: So.. it turns out I have an amazing family. I was just donated a large amount of money from my Nanny and Uncle and its put me even closer toward my goal! I'd say I'm about $700 or so away from my goal and its looking closer and closer everyday! Thank you so much again to everyone who has donated so far ;3; Today has been such a great day!


EDIT #2:For anyone interested, I went to see my orthopedic Dr. today again and some unfortunate news... apparently two more of my discs (l2/l3) are herniated. The herniations are smaller but still there... I also have 1mm or more (forgot the exact measurement) of retrolisthesis of the L5-s1 disc which is probably whats causing the feeling of bones touching and 'dislocating' feeling I've been having lately. This doesn't really change my goal in the long run... I still need to lose weight and have this surgery but... just a little update for anyone who was interested. :(

EDIT: There's an important bit of information I forgot to write out when I made the journal initially. I want to assure everyone that every cent I receive as a result of this will go towards nothing other than purchasing a cintiq companion/or something equivalent. I'm tracking every donation and will be adding it up and once I'm able to buy a cintiq I will post proof of purchase! If by some miracle there is any leftover donation money I will be donating it to a charity that I will probably hold a poll for everyone to decide! I really don't expect to go over my goal from donations alone, so whenever I'm able to get back on my feet, even if I don't have any excess donation money left I will try my best to save up on the side to donate to a charity on my own as a small way to pay all of this kindness forward! I've already received so much from you guys, not only monetarily but emotionally and I love you all so much ;_;



So... I didn't think I'd end up doing this, and it kind of makes me sick in the stomach but I've exhausted most of my options up until this point. As some of you may know I was diagnosed the beginning of last year with a severe herniated disc and Degenerative Disc Disease at the L5-S1 level. For a while it was manageable but as the year progressed it got worse and worse til' about a few weeks before Thanksgiving when I threw out my back the first time. I was bedridden for a while and slowly got better until a few weeks into Dec. when I threw out my back a second time. Since then it's just gone downhill incredibly fast. I had an updated MRI a few weeks ago and the disc is about 1/4th of an inch thick if that... its basically just dissolving into space lol. At this point the vertebrae are essentially touching whenever I sit or if I stand in one place for too long. Because of this I can't sit for more than 1-2 minutes, and I can't stand in one place for more than 5-10 minutes without becoming horrifically uncomfortable and in pain. Walking is alright but, once again, I can't do too much of it. So I'm basically limited in my mobility at the moment and it makes it incredibly hard to do everyday tasks, or to draw at all. Last month I was able to manage by drawing for 10-20 minutes then taking a break... it put me in a great amount of pain but it was doable. As of now it just.. isn't. So I'm left with literally no way to make an income. I will admit I receive partial disability payments each month (not close to the full amount as I began reporting my wages) and it does help me to pay part of my rent each month. However past that (utilities/groceries/personal bills/everything else) is left up to what I make from art. The inability to draw, or leave my house much at all aside from physical therapy (car rides are the WORST) coupled with chronic daily pain, the depression is beginning to set in.

I've been to see an orthopedic, and hoping to get a second opinion as well, but he's suggested fusion surgery when I'm able to drop at LEAST 50lbs (22lbs down so far) This is quite slow for me as I also have PCOS and am very limited in what exercising I am able to do. So the surgery is a quite 'in the future' sort of deal... hoping for this year but being on medicaid who knows how long the process will take when it actually happens. In the meantime, I have to find a way to make money and the only thing I can think of right now is to somehow purchase a Cintiq companion or something equivalent so that I'm able to draw laying down or reclining at least. I know its a very frivolous thing to ask for donations for but its the only thing I can think of in my situation that will help me to continue to do my work while I wait for surgery.

I have to say I hate making this journal... I really don't want to and I'm deeply embarrassed, but all of my family is in worse financial situations than I am, and my partner is already working 12 hour days just for us to continue to live in our house and I can't ask any more of him. So... to the conclusion of this hideous sob-story, I need help... any help will help. I'm not going to have any sort of goal as even if I end up with $50 in donations that would help tremendously as I have no other options other than to wait around and try to save up for this on my own. I am not a very quick artist, but even if you donate a dollar I will probably end up drawing for you even if its a colored sketch or something like that. I have commissions I owe firsthand when I am able to draw again, and they get priority over all else (they've already waited way too long) but I am determined to give something to anyone kind enough to help me out.

Even if you yourself aren't able to donate, spreading the word would help as well! Even just taking the time to read all of this self-piteous dribble is very appreciated. I love all of you who continuously support me despite my quietness and shyness and slowness on art. I honestly wouldn't be the same without DA and the Grem community especially. Love you guys. ;-;/

Here is the link if you're able to spare anything! www.paypal.com/cgi-bin/webscr?…


Thank you so much again, and please try not to think less of me for this. ;-;


P.S. If anyone would like 'proof' of sorts of my situation, I have access to my latest MRI and I can try to get a screenshot of the state of my spine. If you'd like to see just let me know and I can note you an image. As an added bonus it comes with a cross-section of my gigantic butt. P:
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kamikins Featured By Owner Feb 27, 2017  Student Digital Artist
super late to this but yAY I'M SO HAPPY IT WORKED OUT <333
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Thlyatara Featured By Owner Feb 24, 2017
I'm glad you hit your goal! You have such a kind family~ <3
I'm also so sorry that two more discs herniated ;w; Take care of yourself okay?
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cactos Featured By Owner Feb 24, 2017
im so glad you managed to collect all the money you need < 33 Congrats and have fun with drawing on your new tablet!!
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z0mbie-milk Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2017  Student General Artist
congratulations!!
im so happy you reached your goal omg ;U;/
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NinGeko Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
YOOOOOOOOOO CONGRATSSSSSS!!!!
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acember Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
aa, glad to hear you got the funds you needed!! I hope you're able to raise money so you can get that surgery and get to feeling better soon. I can't even begin to imagine how horrible your back must feel. I also agree with tooth, I think any excess money you have should go to your surgery fund, every little bit helps after all. Either way I am wishing you the best Kas  ; o; <3

(You actually are getting the same tablet I'm saving up for rn too! When you get it would you mind telling me how it performs for you? i'd be very interested to learn more about it from someone who owns one and will be using it regularly! :0c )
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PkingSora Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2017  Professional General Artist
Yaayy!!d
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HeronDreams Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2017
I'm so happy for you! 
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NinGeko Featured By Owner Feb 19, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks for the updates Kas QuQ 
///continuously hugs
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Kasmut Featured By Owner Feb 19, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
*hugs* ;3;
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CunningFox Featured By Owner Feb 17, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Wow this all sounds very brutal for your back ;v; fingers crossed you can get the surgery sooner rather than later!
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Kasmut Featured By Owner Feb 19, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Same here! ;3;/
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574Studios Featured By Owner Feb 17, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Damn, life is being really unfair to you. I hope you get a lucky break soon, and when you do, I hope it lasts a LONG time.
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Kasmut Featured By Owner Feb 19, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I'm hoping the same! It'll look up eventually I'm hopeful
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PkingSora Featured By Owner Feb 17, 2017  Professional General Artist
donated $50 ;v ; wish i could give more..sorry 
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Kasmut Featured By Owner Feb 19, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
AH would you mind noting me privately the email you donated with? I am keeping track of every donation and I think I received one other $50 donation but it was from someone else on DA! Just wanting to make sure Paypal isn't messing up x3x

Also please don't be sorry at all! That is a lot of money to just donate away and I appreciate it SO much <3
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PkingSora Featured By Owner Mar 19, 2017  Professional General Artist
;///; apologies for the delay, I think i sent my note<3 
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Huckleberried Featured By Owner Feb 17, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
When I get the free time I'll try to spread this around for you. ;v;
I really hope things work out for you!
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Kasmut Featured By Owner Feb 19, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
TYSM <3 That will help out a bunch
and I hope so too ;3;
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Huckleberried Featured By Owner Feb 19, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I'm so glad it sounds like you're closer and closer to your goal! If I can spare anything my next paycheck I'll definitely try and help ya out. <3
I'm so happy it seems to be going well though omg ;v;
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gatorstooth Featured By Owner Feb 16, 2017  Professional Digital Artist
I didn't see this when you posted it! ;v; I'm glad you decided to!
I'll be back when I have rent down for the month, and for now i'm going to share this for you!!
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Kasmut Featured By Owner Feb 19, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thank you SO much gator I really appreciate it <3 ;3; I was so afraid/ashamed to post at first but it shown me how generous and amazing the DA community can be and I'm very thankful to be surrounded by SO many people who care so much. /;3;\
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Toonime Featured By Owner Feb 15, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
I would gladly donate but unfortunately my crappy job is leaving me in the poor house. I pretty much only get 5 hours a week, with an occasional extra day or two for a bi-monthly weekend sale. I'll at least pray and hope for you to make a quick recovery with as little pain as possible. It ain't much, but I hope it means something. If I can get some spare dough I'll send it your way.
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Kasmut Featured By Owner Feb 19, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
It means a lot! I hope you are able to find a better job or get more hours some day i know how hard and limiting that can be. D:
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Toonime Featured By Owner Feb 19, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
I do have a job interview for a job I want on Tuesday, so hopefully it means a better job. Now, I just have to get a ton of money to get my own place, since I'm done with my toxic family relationships right now. My brother is an asshole, my sis-in-law, though sweet, isn't really helping the situation, my mom is grinding down on me when my brother whines to her, or she has to remind me that I'm costing them money, and all around I'm just constantly in a state of stress and depression. I think I've actually become dulled and numb to it, and every once in a while it just bubbles up.
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azulacat14 Featured By Owner Feb 15, 2017  Student Digital Artist
I don't have a lot to my name right now but I know how hard it is to go through medical problems, so I donated all I have. (even though it's only 4 dollars) I really hope this gets worked out and that one day you'll be able to put these troubles behind you. Hug 
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Kasmut Featured By Owner Feb 19, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thank you SO much for donating especially if its all you had!! I appreciate every cent of it ;_; And I hope that i'm able to move on from all of this soon as well <3
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kamikins Featured By Owner Feb 15, 2017  Student Digital Artist
First off, thank you so much for the watch?? Omg I'm honored ;O;
Second, I'm here to help you if you need anything. I can't give anything at the moment, but I'm happy to be anything from an open ear to helping you make art/adoptables to sell. I know what it's like to have life start throwing shit at you that you have to overcome despite how debilitating it can be, so if I can lessen that for you at all, I'm here for you. My dad has severe spine issues as well and has to be in a wheelchair, so this all hits close to home for me. <3
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Kasmut Featured By Owner Feb 15, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
! I was surprised I wasn't watching you I swear I already was... anyway FIXED THAT

And TYSM for offering to help it means so much ;3;/ I'm so sorry to hear about your dad, the spine issue I have is considered minor compared to some people and I'm grateful for that but its still hell so I can only imagine what he's gone/going through. D:
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kamikins Featured By Owner Feb 17, 2017  Student Digital Artist
weeps ;; it truly means a lot, I wish I could convey the actual feelings to you to enjoy them with me!!

Of course!! He gets along alright, just can't travel that much. Hopefully he can make it to my graduation this year ;u; he lives a few states away.
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ToothlessEgo Featured By Owner Feb 14, 2017  Student Digital Artist
Any excess donation money should go to a surgery fund imo asjhf
You deserve all the support you can get ;----; <33
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Kasmut Featured By Owner Feb 14, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
kicks you in the butt bcuz YOU deserve it
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ToothlessEgo Featured By Owner Feb 16, 2017  Student Digital Artist
WOW....RUDE
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Mystery0099 Featured By Owner Feb 14, 2017
I'm currently broke, but I shall create a journal to spread da word! I am a dummy! 

P.S. I hope you will get better!
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Kasmut Featured By Owner Feb 14, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thank you so much for the journal it helps me out a lot! ;3; <3
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Mystery0099 Featured By Owner Feb 14, 2017
No problem! Meow :3 
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cactos Featured By Owner Edited Feb 14, 2017
donated 20$, its not that much but i hope it helps somehow ;_; my mother had similar issue with disc so i know how you feel kinda
Stay positive, you're an amazing artist and everything will be just fine. ALso there's nothing to be embarrased for, everyone is with you < 3
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Kasmut Featured By Owner Feb 14, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thank you so much! I appreciate every penny. I hope your mom recovered from that, its really no fun at all ;3;
thank you so much again YOU'rE AMAZING
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Pepperoonie Featured By Owner Feb 14, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
AA I wish i could help but im flat broke ;;;; best of luck Kas ;;
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Kasmut Featured By Owner Feb 14, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
ITS OK MALF I totally can relate, thank you so much <3 ;3;
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Pepperoonie Featured By Owner Feb 16, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
<3
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milcake Featured By Owner Feb 14, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
SOBS im so sorry ur going through this kas !!! u are an incredible artist and i adore your work . : < once i get home ill check to see if i have cash !! if i do its goin ur way ily bb
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Kasmut Featured By Owner Feb 14, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
waah thank you so much /;3;\ even if you're not able to donate I appreciate the kind words!!
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IrianWhitefox Featured By Owner Feb 14, 2017  Professional Interface Designer
Donated! I hope it will be of help :)
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Kasmut Featured By Owner Feb 14, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks so much!! Its definitely extremely helpful I appreciate every bit of it *hugs* ;3;
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IrianWhitefox Featured By Owner Feb 14, 2017  Professional Interface Designer
*Hugs* Just get better soon. ^^

Another option instead of a cintiq could be an ipad. I heard it works really well and I saw some really cool works made with it. But of course the real day may be better :)
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Chardraen Featured By Owner Feb 14, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Couldn't spare much right now, but I hope it helps! 
I've had some back issues in the past due to my funky feet misaligning everything, but even with that pain, I can only imagine how much worse yours is ;-;
You're in my thoughts, I truly hope things start to look up for you <3
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Kasmut Featured By Owner Feb 14, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thank you so much for donating! Any amount is so helpful to me right now i  really appreciate it ;3;
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catcalled Featured By Owner Feb 14, 2017
as soon as i get paid ill send over a hundred bucks or so. i dont really need it at the moment but you do and i wanna help out as much as possible O:
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